The Count Down

So my boyfriends birthday is coming up soon.

I have been asking him what would he like to do and what kind of gift he would like and he does not give me any feed back. He just says we can do "what ever" and when it comes to gifts he says he does want anything.

But we, sorry I decided on Buca, which is an Italian restaurant. I have booked a spot for us but the guest list is so.... well words can not describe it and I do not know how to spell it. 

I invited some mutual friends. These people are people who Val has met a few times and who he seems to get along with. I doubt he has invited any of his friends from work for from his home town. But I do not know who will come since the dinner is in the middle of the week.

I hope it does not end like my birthday were I was crying cause no one showed up to the karaoke and everyone canceled at the last minute.

Recently I have been joining local couple groups, groups that live in our area, and it does not seem to help. They are full of people we have nothing in common with. 

On to the gifts. I texted several friends, asking if they would go with me window shopping and like always everyone has a life. I didn't go but tomorrow I will go on my own to look around.

It is so funny, The friends I have who would do things with out hesitation live in a different city, yet the people who live ten minutes away never seem to have the time to be friends.

I say I want to get out of the gay world and live in the world but no one wants to do that. I have been so isolated from the gay scene that my friends have drifted away. My friends are still drawn to that world. I remember when I was in my teens and early twenties, that was everything. I wish I could find a gay couple who are like Valentino and I. People who like to go out to different places not just a gay or straight bar, but to the movies, to go hiking, to dinner, to the theatre, road trips, and just be friends.

Maybe I am asking to much??