The Count Down

So my boyfriends birthday is coming up soon.

I have been asking him what would he like to do and what kind of gift he would like and he does not give me any feed back. He just says we can do "what ever" and when it comes to gifts he says he does want anything.

But we, sorry I decided on Buca, which is an Italian restaurant. I have booked a spot for us but the guest list is so.... well words can not describe it and I do not know how to spell it. 

I invited some mutual friends. These people are people who Val has met a few times and who he seems to get along with. I doubt he has invited any of his friends from work for from his home town. But I do not know who will come since the dinner is in the middle of the week.

I hope it does not end like my birthday were I was crying cause no one showed up to the karaoke and everyone canceled at the last minute.

Recently I have been joining local couple groups, groups that live in our area, and it does not seem to help. They are full of people we have nothing in common with. 

On to the gifts. I texted several friends, asking if they would go with me window shopping and like always everyone has a life. I didn't go but tomorrow I will go on my own to look around.

It is so funny, The friends I have who would do things with out hesitation live in a different city, yet the people who live ten minutes away never seem to have the time to be friends.

I say I want to get out of the gay world and live in the world but no one wants to do that. I have been so isolated from the gay scene that my friends have drifted away. My friends are still drawn to that world. I remember when I was in my teens and early twenties, that was everything. I wish I could find a gay couple who are like Valentino and I. People who like to go out to different places not just a gay or straight bar, but to the movies, to go hiking, to dinner, to the theatre, road trips, and just be friends.

Maybe I am asking to much??

Hello, hello, its glad to know I am not alone.

So my life has been work, work, gym, stress, work, work, and food.

There has not been much excitement for me but out of the blue my boyfriend and I packed and left Austin. We took a day trip to to the east coast of Texas hoping the sun was shining and the wind was tamed.


Sunday was a great day in Austin but Monday on Memorial Day the weather was horrible. I called my uncle and told him think you since he was in the military but now does police/security work. It has been years since I have spoke to him. I have not been keeping up with friends or family.I made plans to sun bathe at Deep Eddy's Pool which get water from the local spring but the water is cleaned daily. This water is SUPER COOL even on a hot day. Since the weather got me down we hit the gym and working out on shoulders and legs. 


We were off that day and had noting to do so we packed our swim trunks and took off to Galveston, Tx. Since we were up since 9AM and hit the gym we have not ate, so we got some spring rolls to go from Pho King. I have tofu rolls while Val had shrimp rolls. SO GOOD! We left from north Austin on 290 to Giddings. I hate traveling and in less then an hour I was restless and bored lol. So we through Brenham were I saw an out door movie theatre but Val did not want to stop and watch a movie. Finally after three hours were arrived in Houston. Houston is a big city. I have only been there one other time to an Italian Festival several years ago.




It must have taken about thirty minutes to drive through.  It continues to be cloudy and windy. There still really is not much to see but there are plenty of small towns from Austin to Galveston but none that we stopped to check out. The gay disease know as antique shopping... it plagues me, but luckily I have no money to buy anything if I did see something I like lol.  So finally are right outside Galveston as the traffic builds up. We say cars... "thugged up" I guess. Cars with crazy rims to cars missing parts but still driving.


There were people parking on the side of the road fishing. Lots of houses with boats and houses with three to six jet skis. Makes me wonder what do these people do for a living to afford several cars, boats, jet skies, and to live off the lake or the ocean....????


Finally we made it to Galveston and there was so much to seen. There were lots of pelicans, sea gulls, historical buildings, scary people. So I had to piss and we stopped at a gas station. The inner-section was packed and there were tons of people. At the gas station, I was shocked at what I saw. "Thugs" wearing shorts over shorts over shorts and you still can see their underwear....????

  So not prêt-à-porter!

We take off and make a right turn on some road called Sea.... . something something.... and I see the Gulf of Mexico!!! We find a spot to park at and hit a shop. We use their dressing room to change into our swim trucks. Unfortunately my trucks didn't fit me so Val bought me some new ones. I weight 183lb but with a waist that has a mind of its own. Usually I am a 34in but I guess yesterday I was a 32in. I got my new trucks on and then we shopped for a souvenir for the fridge. I love collecting magnets for our fridge. 


We head to a place called Fish Tails for an early dinner. Being a vegetarian my selection was limited. But Val and I agreed that our vegetarianism is closer to a Mediterranean lifestyle then becoming vegans. Val loves cheese and milk and I love breakfast tacos with papas!!! We had sea food and it was great. 

So we walk the beach with some left over french fries to feed the sea gulls. That was an experience I can not really describe. Watching the sea gulls about 2 feet away from me, hovering, it was like magic. I tried to let them take a fry off my head but I was to scared and kept squatting down then standing up straight so they could grab it.

I collect some sea shells, Val steps on a rock, and I almost slip on to rocks into the ocean. We decide to check out the local homo pub called Stars. There was nothing cute about it besides a being next to the beach. We had a beer and watching House. The day passed and it was already 8pm and the sun was going down. The wind was picking up and sand was getting in our eyes. We headed back to the car which seemed to take forever when you have to piss.

I didnt want to go back to Austin. I wanted to stay on the beach and wait for the sun. But being a grown up there are bills to pay. The drive was long and I started to fall asleep in the passenger seat. Finally home by 1:30AM.

The Return

Today I had a great morning with the boyfriend.
We got our routine haircuts. We paid some bills. We had breakfast. We hanged out.

Today is my day off and while he was at work I stayed home with the dogs. I cleaned the garage a bit and hit the gym. Mid crisis occurred because I lost but found his key since he took my car to work.

Today was my first day back to the gym in about one week. I updated my ipod shuffle and jammed out at the gym. I did chest, back, and obliques.

There was not that many people at the gym. I guess everyone is celebrating Memorial Weekend.

I guess since my family was never one to celebrate American holidays I don't seem to care for them.
My family is big on the Christan holidays such as Easter and Christmas. While I prefer Valentines Day and Halloween.

Today marks my fourth real day of vegetarianism. It is getting easier but at the same time boring lol. My partner and I a re ovo-lacto vegetarians. I had eggs today. It was so good. I had a little bit of old chicken yesterday and got sick.

Speaking of sick, I vomited a little bit at the gym too. I have gotten nauseous a few time while working out.In the gym world it means you are pushing past your limit and it is a good workout.

Tonight my boyfriend and I are going to a friends house warming party.

Til next time.

Heavy Metal Lover

Its been a very rough three weeks or so from my last post.
I have not being going to the gym, I lost my mojo along the way for the gym.
I am also getting exhausted in traveling from clinic to clinic with work.

So since the last post.....

I have once again have not been keeping up with a good sleep pattern. I wake up and hear my dogs licking themselves and I think it is raining outside. Or I just go to bed very late because I am going to the gym late in the evening. By the time I wake up my eyes are burning because I have only had about five to six hours of sleep. The only time my eyes do not burn in the morning and when I feel rested is not when I sleep but when I meditate instead.... weird.

A friend was fired from work... I do not know if I should bring this up or not. The point is I applied for her position and got it. I now have a spot... after about five years of floating I have a home station. Now I have about one month left of floating and training my replacement. I am excited about this situation but sad about my friends misfortune.

Good news is that my Lady Gaga and t-shirts have arrived. Since Thursday I have been listening to the album over and over. So I have a new UBER GAY ringtone from the song, Heavy Metal Lover.

Highs and Lows

So I got the position in Rheumatology. After about 5 years at the clinic I finally have a home. I have about two more weeks of float coverage and then I can go to my station.

Unfortunately the timing is not the best. I have been summoned for jury duty at the same time I am scheduled to the new station. I have never had the task of jury duty and it has a bad reputation.

I filled out my online application and summited it. I have to be at the court house on 06/06/11. I am interested in the situation and at the same time not looking forward because I will not be making any money.

As far as the gym, I have gotten back in the grove of things. I am at the end of my 24hr fitness pass but I am not switching over. I am sticking with gold's gym, infact I went today for their yoga class. I had a good time and felt great afterwards.

Tonight I went to 24hr and did shoulders. I continue to use T-Bomb and Pink Magic. I have noticed some muscle growth. To my stack I am also using BSN CellMass and Syntha6 protein. I have slowed down on my multi vitamins, I think I have to much of something and its causing me to become tired.

T1M3

School is out!
No more second job!

Now I am just working at the clinic full time again and loving it. I feel like the pressure is off my back and no longer crushing me. I am excited in getting back into the gym for my summer fitness goal and just relax, ing.

There is a price to this, now I have a lot of time on my hands and I do not know what to do. The hard part is not to over eat out of boredom.

For the past few days my gym partner and I have been going 24 hour fitness. It is an alright gym. I would be paying about the same amount of money I do at golds but with the luxury of having a gym open 24hrs a day. There is not anything special about 24, nothing that stands out, but once again it is open 24hrs.

After considering the options I think I am going to stick with golds gym. I have even marked my calander for all their yoga classes. I have found time to check into what I am interested in such as fitness but also metaphysics. You must take care of the mind as well as the body.

Baby Steps

Today was a double duty of a day. I went to work at the clinic and it was a non stressful position of work.
I got some homework done.
I got to catch up with coworkers I have not seen for a long time. Had cold chinese food for lunch too.

It was also payday. Its hard to believe I have only been back at the clinic for three weeks. It feels like I never left.

I called today and thursdays double duty because after clinic I had to come into work at GNC. It was very steady today. I was left with putting up new shipment away, thats AM shift.

I am wanting to hit the gym after work because its been about five days since I last worked out. I need to keep going otherwise all these supplement pills I am poping are for nothing.

.....my feet hurt.

Three more days til my handsome boyfriend returns. It seems like months. I guess I am obsess over him or just extremely attached to him.

We do everything together, he is my best friend. We have been arguing about be hanging out with certain people and about place to hang out. I totally of failed relationship I learned that I need to just be comfortable with myself and believe in the relationship I was in.

I feel this way now with my partner.

Several of my friends wanted me to go out and meet them downtown. My partner said he is ok with this. I am afraid of going because he will not be there by myside.