Saturday, June 11, 2011
The Count Down
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
Hello, hello, its glad to know I am not alone.
So my life has been work, work, gym, stress, work, work, and food.There has not been much excitement for me but out of the blue my boyfriend and I packed and left Austin. We took a day trip to to the east coast of Texas hoping the sun was shining and the wind was tamed.
Sunday was a great day in Austin but Monday on Memorial Day the weather was horrible. I called my uncle and told him think you since he was in the military but now does police/security work. It has been years since I have spoke to him. I have not been keeping up with friends or family.I made plans to sun bathe at Deep Eddy's Pool which get water from the local spring but the water is cleaned daily. This water is SUPER COOL even on a hot day. Since the weather got me down we hit the gym and working out on shoulders and legs.
We were off that day and had noting to do so we packed our swim trunks and took off to Galveston, Tx. Since we were up since 9AM and hit the gym we have not ate, so we got some spring rolls to go from Pho King. I have tofu rolls while Val had shrimp rolls. SO GOOD! We left from north Austin on 290 to Giddings. I hate traveling and in less then an hour I was restless and bored lol. So we through Brenham were I saw an out door movie theatre but Val did not want to stop and watch a movie. Finally after three hours were arrived in Houston. Houston is a big city. I have only been there one other time to an Italian Festival several years ago.

It must have taken about thirty minutes to drive through. It continues to be cloudy and windy. There still really is not much to see but there are plenty of small towns from Austin to Galveston but none that we stopped to check out. The gay disease know as antique shopping... it plagues me, but luckily I have no money to buy anything if I did see something I like lol. So finally are right outside Galveston as the traffic builds up. We say cars... "thugged up" I guess. Cars with crazy rims to cars missing parts but still driving.
There were people parking on the side of the road fishing. Lots of houses with boats and houses with three to six jet skis. Makes me wonder what do these people do for a living to afford several cars, boats, jet skies, and to live off the lake or the ocean....????
Finally we made it to Galveston and there was so much to seen. There were lots of pelicans, sea gulls, historical buildings, scary people. So I had to piss and we stopped at a gas station. The inner-section was packed and there were tons of people. At the gas station, I was shocked at what I saw. "Thugs" wearing shorts over shorts over shorts and you still can see their underwear....????
We take off and make a right turn on some road called Sea.... . something something.... and I see the Gulf of Mexico!!! We find a spot to park at and hit a shop. We use their dressing room to change into our swim trucks. Unfortunately my trucks didn't fit me so Val bought me some new ones. I weight 183lb but with a waist that has a mind of its own. Usually I am a 34in but I guess yesterday I was a 32in. I got my new trucks on and then we shopped for a souvenir for the fridge. I love collecting magnets for our fridge. We head to a place called Fish Tails for an early dinner. Being a vegetarian my selection was limited. But Val and I agreed that our vegetarianism is closer to a Mediterranean lifestyle then becoming vegans. Val loves cheese and milk and I love breakfast tacos with papas!!! We had sea food and it was great.
I collect some sea shells, Val steps on a rock, and I almost slip on to rocks into the ocean. We decide to check out the local homo pub called Stars. There was nothing cute about it besides a being next to the beach. We had a beer and watching House. The day passed and it was already 8pm and the sun was going down. The wind was picking up and sand was getting in our eyes. We headed back to the car which seemed to take forever when you have to piss.I didnt want to go back to Austin. I wanted to stay on the beach and wait for the sun. But being a grown up there are bills to pay. The drive was long and I started to fall asleep in the passenger seat. Finally home by 1:30AM.
Saturday, May 28, 2011
The Return
We got our routine haircuts. We paid some bills. We had breakfast. We hanged out.
Today is my day off and while he was at work I stayed home with the dogs. I cleaned the garage a bit and hit the gym. Mid crisis occurred because I lost but found his key since he took my car to work.
Today was my first day back to the gym in about one week. I updated my ipod shuffle and jammed out at the gym. I did chest, back, and obliques.
There was not that many people at the gym. I guess everyone is celebrating Memorial Weekend.
I guess since my family was never one to celebrate American holidays I don't seem to care for them.
My family is big on the Christan holidays such as Easter and Christmas. While I prefer Valentines Day and Halloween.
Today marks my fourth real day of vegetarianism. It is getting easier but at the same time boring lol. My partner and I a re ovo-lacto vegetarians. I had eggs today. It was so good. I had a little bit of old chicken yesterday and got sick.
Speaking of sick, I vomited a little bit at the gym too. I have gotten nauseous a few time while working out.In the gym world it means you are pushing past your limit and it is a good workout.
Tonight my boyfriend and I are going to a friends house warming party.
Til next time.
Friday, May 27, 2011
Heavy Metal Lover
I have not being going to the gym, I lost my mojo along the way for the gym.
I am also getting exhausted in traveling from clinic to clinic with work.
So since the last post.....
I have once again have not been keeping up with a good sleep pattern. I wake up and hear my dogs licking themselves and I think it is raining outside. Or I just go to bed very late because I am going to the gym late in the evening. By the time I wake up my eyes are burning because I have only had about five to six hours of sleep. The only time my eyes do not burn in the morning and when I feel rested is not when I sleep but when I meditate instead.... weird.
A friend was fired from work... I do not know if I should bring this up or not. The point is I applied for her position and got it. I now have a spot... after about five years of floating I have a home station. Now I have about one month left of floating and training my replacement. I am excited about this situation but sad about my friends misfortune.
Good news is that my Lady Gaga and t-shirts have arrived. Since Thursday I have been listening to the album over and over. So I have a new UBER GAY ringtone from the song, Heavy Metal Lover.
Monday, May 16, 2011
Highs and Lows
Unfortunately the timing is not the best. I have been summoned for jury duty at the same time I am scheduled to the new station. I have never had the task of jury duty and it has a bad reputation.
I filled out my online application and summited it. I have to be at the court house on 06/06/11. I am interested in the situation and at the same time not looking forward because I will not be making any money.
As far as the gym, I have gotten back in the grove of things. I am at the end of my 24hr fitness pass but I am not switching over. I am sticking with gold's gym, infact I went today for their yoga class. I had a good time and felt great afterwards.
Tonight I went to 24hr and did shoulders. I continue to use T-Bomb and Pink Magic. I have noticed some muscle growth. To my stack I am also using BSN CellMass and Syntha6 protein. I have slowed down on my multi vitamins, I think I have to much of something and its causing me to become tired.
Saturday, May 14, 2011
T1M3
No more second job!
Now I am just working at the clinic full time again and loving it. I feel like the pressure is off my back and no longer crushing me. I am excited in getting back into the gym for my summer fitness goal and just relax, ing.
There is a price to this, now I have a lot of time on my hands and I do not know what to do. The hard part is not to over eat out of boredom.
For the past few days my gym partner and I have been going 24 hour fitness. It is an alright gym. I would be paying about the same amount of money I do at golds but with the luxury of having a gym open 24hrs a day. There is not anything special about 24, nothing that stands out, but once again it is open 24hrs.
After considering the options I think I am going to stick with golds gym. I have even marked my calander for all their yoga classes. I have found time to check into what I am interested in such as fitness but also metaphysics. You must take care of the mind as well as the body.
Friday, April 22, 2011
Baby Steps
Today was a double duty of a day. I went to work at the clinic and it was a non stressful position of work.
I got some homework done.
I got to catch up with coworkers I have not seen for a long time. Had cold chinese food for lunch too.
It was also payday. Its hard to believe I have only been back at the clinic for three weeks. It feels like I never left.
I called today and thursdays double duty because after clinic I had to come into work at GNC. It was very steady today. I was left with putting up new shipment away, thats AM shift.
I am wanting to hit the gym after work because its been about five days since I last worked out. I need to keep going otherwise all these supplement pills I am poping are for nothing.
.....my feet hurt.
Three more days til my handsome boyfriend returns. It seems like months. I guess I am obsess over him or just extremely attached to him.
We do everything together, he is my best friend. We have been arguing about be hanging out with certain people and about place to hang out. I totally of failed relationship I learned that I need to just be comfortable with myself and believe in the relationship I was in.
I feel this way now with my partner.
Several of my friends wanted me to go out and meet them downtown. My partner said he is ok with this. I am afraid of going because he will not be there by myside.
Thursday, April 21, 2011
Waking Up
It feels like aeons since my last post. It seems like time has swept me off my feet.
Well my gym progress has basicly stopped by that is because of me. I have been sick with allergies, stress, and the lack of sleep.
I am feeling good right now considering the fact I am working two jobs for the past three weeks or so and I am still going to school two nights out of the week.
I realized my motivation is inside me but it's me stopping me because... I'm lazy.
I am going to try harder. Porn star harder, LOL.
Along with trying harder I really need to focus on school. My grades have been going down hill and I am not sure what my problem is besides not giving any effort.
I need to get a grip on things.
My partner has been out of town for several days now visiting family. Life seems very dull without him. Almost like colors are not as vibrant as they should be, and we are in spring and everything is blooming.
My best friend is moving out of my house and moving in with his BF. I wish him the best of luck and I hope be keeps his room clean there lol.
I made a pledge several weeks ago to start hanging out with my friends but I just can not find the time. There is so much going on that it is starting to feel overwhelming.
It might be time for a vacation to the beach. Even if its just for two days.
Its time to head to work at GNC. I have been awake since 6AM at the clinic. Wish me luck.
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
Arms and Shoulders: Day 3
I had a better workout this time then the other past two days. I think it was because I understand arm and shoulder techniques.
I have been using resistance band and they work but its hurting my wrist on certain moves.
Recently some of my friends have told my they want to do P90x and or that they have done it and the instructor was very annoying.
So far out of all my friends I do not have anyone that has finished the program.... I hope I do.
Monday, March 7, 2011
Plyometrics, day two of P90x
I did my stretches and I was ready. Today was plyometrics and it was an interesting workout. I enjoyed it but at the same time I felt like I was just jumping around a lot.
I worked up a good sweat and I was able to follow along better since there was no switching back and forth from floor to machine.
Afterwards I did my home work and took a nap. When I was laying now I notice my back and my neck was hurting and feeling stiff. I am not sure if it was from yesterdays workout sneaking up on my but then I started having cramps in my left foot. I think that was from walking on the cold floor.
Tomorrow is day three.
Sunday, March 6, 2011
P90x, the beginning.
AFTER WORK, I took my Refine and Ravage supplements and got ready to do my first session of P90x. To be honest I did not like it. I felt that it was focusing on workouts which I and I am sure most people do no not give must effort to, PUSH UPS. I can see the value in this program and I know given dedication this technique will work and show results. At the same time I kept comparing the workout with Gold's Gym's program, "Body Pump." P90x is very similar but different. Pump focus on low to mid-level weights and fast reps and P90x allows you to lift as much and how many as you want as long as you get get a burn from it. The other problem I have with P90x, and it could be my fault for not looking or fully reading the manual, but I was not able to keep up with the instructor because I was still trying to set up my cables. I wish there was a guild which will show me each move and the name and then I can watch the video.
Yes, I know I could have pressed pause and then set up everything, but thats not fun. The fun is feeling like your really interacting, you ass hole!This rant is not me complaining or dogging P90x, I am just venting my experience. Tomorrow is day two for P90x and you should not start something you can not finish, and I will finish this program and finally tighten up my damn back fat!
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
Ironing the wrinkles out while the Rottweilers play.
Saturday, February 26, 2011
The Owl vs The Boar
Its funny that day I had several customers call the store and wanted to know my name because they felt comfortable talking to me and that I seem like I know what I am talking about. While in the store, some customers expressed that they do not like the manager because he "hounds" the and does not let them shop around and pressures them to buying something and then to leave.
Today I worked at another GNC location in Round Rock, Tx. Today was an awesome day. The customers there wanted to shop around and wanted to listen about items and how it can benefit them. They were interested in knowing who I am and what I would recommend. The customers had a different attitude and different perspective on health. It was a breath of fresh air. Thursday, February 24, 2011
Day of Days
I feel like it has made a huge difference. The thermogenic, Refine, still needs time to kick in but the pre workout mix, Ravage, is helping me go the extra mile. I notice I am more care free and focus while working out. Infact all I can think about is the next time I am going to the gym and what am I going to workout on?

The N.O. formula in Raveage is really the key to this change. I can not wait til April to see the results.
Yesterday was bicep and tricep workout when went ok. I did have a good workout but notice my technique was a bit messy.
Today I worked out on chest and I Killed It!
I used dumb bells for all my lifts today. From over chest press, flies, flat bench, and incline. In between each rep I attempted to jump rope. It has been awhile since I have used a jump rope and it was hard but I managed to jump 50 times in between each rep.
At the end of the workout my shirt was soaked from the front to the back with sweat.
My chest feels thicker but the pecs are not formed yet. My biceps and triceps are still a bit sore from yesterday. It could also be the other supplement, Powerful, which I continue to use.
I have not weigh my self since last week but I can see and I do feel a difference in my size. I am slimming down and I must be a size 33 now since I can fit into my size 32 uncomfortably.
I still need more supplies before starting P90x.
Saturday, February 19, 2011
Ctrl-Alt-Del
Today is the first day of the GNC two day body cleanse I am taking. This morning I started with a large glass of water with one of my Lipo6 Black pills to help me wake up. I ironed my close and got my things ready for work. Besides taking my cleanse mix I brought some fruit and protein.Work went by kinda fast but I only had two customers. I guess it went by so quickly because downstairs of the mall they were setting up a stage for a band to play and the location of the store I work in is right above it. I realized I am spending to much time with the customers explaining the products instead of driving them to buy it. I have many people come in over the weeks and I educate them about the products and what may help them for their goals but they lease without buying anything. My sales are not good but at the same time I would not want some one to pressure me into buying but to inform me and let me make up my own mind.
Well back to the cleanse which is surprisingly tasty. The ingredients contain a lot of fruit, vegetable, and vitamin extracts. I have pissed so many times today its unreal, about two to three times an hour. When I think of cleansers I immediately think of bowel cleansers and shitting all the time, but that is not the case. I am almost finished with bottle number one and I am starting to feel bloated.
I have only had fruit and a sandwich to eat todaty.
After the body cleanse and given all the equipment is in I will be starting P90x with the help of some new stack products. I will start using several GNC products made for muscle building and fat burning. Its the GNC Beyond Raw line. I have the ReBuild Mass, the ReFine, Ravage, with the Pro Series Rapid Drive Arginine 5000. I am going to prove you can gain more muscle mass and weight, continue doing routine cardio, and get ripped all at the same time. This is a step in the left directions because most magazines and fitness people will say you have to gain weight (good and bad) before you can get ripped and sculpted. I think it can be done because everyones body response to stimuli differently. What works for you will not work for me or Bob.Tomorrow will be day two of the cleanse drink and also a day at the gym for some chest work.
Friday, February 18, 2011
The Dramatic
I have not been going to the gym as much because of school, home work load, and house duties like laundry, trash, feeding the dogs, and what else.. oh yes, this crazy Texas weather. I am not a winter kind of person, I prefer the spring with its cool breezes and rain. Since its winter season I do not feel like doing shit. In fact I rather eat more then usual... and thats a lot. Its been windy and cold then the next day sunny and muddy.... what a bipolar state I live in.
I reset my laptop to factory setting and I lost all the music I had saved except for what has been stored on my Itouch. I am afraid if I attached my Itouch to my laptop and connect to Itune all my music will be erased.
I filed my taxes with Turbo Tax and go my refund back in one week. Sadly I do not get to spend it on new cloths, new shoes, or even new supplements. The good news is I have the money for the cruise on Carnival to the Caribbeans..... AWESOMENESS!!!!
But Sunday I will get me a new tattoo!
So today I am officially 29 years old and one day. I feel as if Im 23 and maybe thats why I still make dumb misstakes like listening to my ex and trading him my suv which was paid off for a smaller more economical car. Now I am stuck is a car payment. Or maybe for not listening to my peers like my co workers who were nurses who told me not to do any CNA work because its awful.

I am a 23 year old boy in a 29 year old mans body.
The plus about this is that I look 21 years old and still get carded which fuels my ego lol. Sadly on the day of my birthday I was crying in my restroom. After I got out of work I hit the gym. I texted my friends asking if they are still going to meet me for karaoke that night around eight. I got lots of replies that their plans changed, their going out of town, they are to tired, and that they just can not go. An awful feeling of rejections and embarrassment. I wondered if its because I have not been able to spend time with them for their birthdays, or did they think I was expecting gifts, or did they just not want to be around me?
But the night did not end in mellon collie, I went to dinner with a friend and then a few more friends came and joined.
I do feel like I am in "bloom" and becoming something more both physically and mentally.
I realized the only thing stopping me from reaching the stars is myself. This is all going to change!
Thursday, February 3, 2011
The Fear, The Goal, The Idea
I did not do cardio or light weight.
I worked out on biceps and triceps.
I did three work out sets for both muscle groups. I would have, should have done a fourth but my arms started to feel swollen and weak.
I have noticed that I am lifting heavier then last week.
After my workout I went to the hot tub to soak and relax while drinking my post workout protein drink. In the hot tub there was a man already there. I got in and he asked me, "Is that one of those high dollar protein drinks?" I replied no it is not, the protein within is reasonably priced and that there are some other stuff in it that I mixed to help build muscle.
Long story short, he got out and I was in the hot tub thinking about protein, GNC, and money. I realized that working part time at GNC give me time for the gym and for school, but where is the money form this?
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
Double Trouble!!
New Workout Pump Song...... Christina Aguilera, FIGHTER! Its old I know but this song is ultra hot and helped me push myself when I was working out. I must have listened to it about four times.Thursday, January 27, 2011
Between a rock and a hard place with another rock above me.

After todays workout I was considering taking a yoga class at the gym again. I think the last time I did yoga was in the spring of 09. I like it because not only is it relaxing, it is also helpful for streching and stengthening muscles.
I went to school and had to park two blocks away.. AGAIN! That is so lame, I even bought a parking permit for the school and I am not even using it. Its very interesting in class, my instructor is Libyan and she is very nice, and it appears more and more students are Muslims. I am not sure if my instructor is or is not but the presence of this cultural group is getting more notice in my class. I am not racist or anything but it was a bit shocking to see a woman in my class with a tattoo on her right hand of the crescent moon and star. It is really pagan symbo because it predates their history and religion, El Yay for pagan symbols lol. The funny thing is, in Christianity you are taught that your body is a temple meaning watch what you put into it and what you put on it such as tattoos. We are taught that tattoos are bad and they are ruining God's work.LEVITICUS 19:28 — "You shall not make any cuttings in your flesh for the dead, nor tattoo any marks on you: I am the LORD.
Does this not mean she should be stoned to death or something..............?
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
FATE: has many twist and turns
I went to taco cabana and at first I wanted something small and cheap. This turned in to something more and with extra condoments. I left there with a chicken burrito for my friend and a large beef nacho plate with beans, rice, guacamole, and extra cheese. I went home and sat down and ate... I ate it all, omg I regret it now and feel super guilty..jpeg)
Monday, January 24, 2011
Busy Bee
It was then time to head out for class. This semester I am taking my class at the down town location which is about 20 minutes away from my house in Pflugerville. I left the house at 6pm antisapating traffic since I was headed downtown and to look for parking. To my unexpected dismay I arrived at 6:20 and I was about 40 minutes early.......Grrrrrrrrrrr!What makes things worse that the school parking lot suck and there is never any places to park. I am forced to park my car about two blocks away... in the dark, in possible no parking zones, or pay to park- which I do not.
Saturday, January 22, 2011
Climbing the Tower
Friday, January 21, 2011
A breath of fresh air
Thursday, January 20, 2011
It cant rain all the time

I started off with a PYRAMID workout using the preacher bench. To my surprise the max weight I documented in December was very lite and I had to increase the amount to lift with. I started off with 35lbs but I should have started with 55lbs.
After that I did a set of hammers using 20lbs and 25lbs and learned that I have been doing them wrong for the past 2 years.... OMG! Apparently I have been raising the dumb bells to high. Then my favorite bicep workout, the single curl using an incline bench. I can really feel it when I do this workout. I used 30lbs and 35lbs dumb bells. I finsihed my bicep workout using cables. I lifted 25lbs to 30lbs. No cardio or abs today.
The last 2 1/2 hours at work went by fast. At the end of my shift I wrote my letter of resignation. I felt liberated and I felt justified. In my letter I did express my gratitude that they hired me and allowed me to learn. I explained that I will continue to help PRN until the end of two weeks which will end this month and by February I will not longer be employed by Tri Sun.
What a horrible place to live and to work at. There are to many residents in the hall and two aides in the hall is not enough people to give proper care or attention to residents. But these facilities like Tri Sun are cheap and expect one person to take care of 16 people. Out of those 16 people give 5 of them showers. Out of these 16 people there are several that must be rotated to prevent bedsores, out of those 16 you must try to have every ones teeth brushed which usually does not get done. Out of those 16 several are hoyer lifts and 2 aides must be present to use the hoyer to lift the resident out of the bed and into their wheel chair or back in bed.
Now I can focus on the GNC store and learning about the produces they offer. Now that I will no longer work for the nursing home I will have plenty of time for my home work and studies.
After work I had 3 hot dogs and some water. I will wait til I am ready for bed to drink my last protein drink. Go Beef Cake, Beef Cake!
I pray that the Gods will hear me and open the path so I can finish the nursing program and go back to a clinic and make some BIG money and work regular business house and get my weekends off!!!!
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
what now???
I am going to be soon so I can wait up early and eat some fruit and have a morning protein drink before going to the gym.
I am a bit disappointed in myself for not going but I guess thats life. Now I have home work to add to the list of things to do.



