Baby Steps

Today was a double duty of a day. I went to work at the clinic and it was a non stressful position of work.
I got some homework done.
I got to catch up with coworkers I have not seen for a long time. Had cold chinese food for lunch too.

It was also payday. Its hard to believe I have only been back at the clinic for three weeks. It feels like I never left.

I called today and thursdays double duty because after clinic I had to come into work at GNC. It was very steady today. I was left with putting up new shipment away, thats AM shift.

I am wanting to hit the gym after work because its been about five days since I last worked out. I need to keep going otherwise all these supplement pills I am poping are for nothing.

.....my feet hurt.

Three more days til my handsome boyfriend returns. It seems like months. I guess I am obsess over him or just extremely attached to him.

We do everything together, he is my best friend. We have been arguing about be hanging out with certain people and about place to hang out. I totally of failed relationship I learned that I need to just be comfortable with myself and believe in the relationship I was in.

I feel this way now with my partner.

Several of my friends wanted me to go out and meet them downtown. My partner said he is ok with this. I am afraid of going because he will not be there by myside.

Waking Up

It feels like aeons since my last post. It seems like time has swept me off my feet.

Well my gym progress has basicly stopped by that is because of me. I have been sick with allergies, stress, and the lack of sleep.

I am feeling good right now considering the fact I am working two jobs for the past three weeks or so and I am still going to school two nights out of the week.

I realized my motivation is inside me but it's me stopping me because... I'm lazy.

I am going to try harder. Porn star harder, LOL.

Along with trying harder I really need to focus on school. My grades have been going down hill and I am not sure what my problem is besides not giving any effort.

I need to get a grip on things.

My partner has been out of town for several days now visiting family. Life seems very dull without him. Almost like colors are not as vibrant as they should be, and we are in spring and everything is blooming.

My best friend is moving out of my house and moving in with his BF. I wish him the best of luck and I hope be keeps his room clean there lol.

I made a pledge several weeks ago to start hanging out with my friends but I just can not find the time. There is so much going on that it is starting to feel overwhelming.

It might be time for a vacation to the beach. Even if its just for two days.

Its time to head to work at GNC. I have been awake since 6AM at the clinic. Wish me luck.