The Dramatic

It has been days, no, weeks since I have blogged. As I think back about it what has gone on.... a lot of shit!!! I am still working at GNC and starting next week there will be no rest for the wicked. Thats right no more days off for me. I will be working every single day at two stores. My manager says I should get more commision because the other store I am assigned to has more business because of it's location. I am looking forward to this.

I have not been going to the gym as much because of school, home work load, and house duties like laundry, trash, feeding the dogs, and what else.. oh yes, this crazy Texas weather. I am not a winter kind of person, I prefer the spring with its cool breezes and rain. Since its winter season I do not feel like doing shit. In fact I rather eat more then usual... and thats a lot. Its been windy and cold then the next day sunny and muddy.... what a bipolar state I live in.

I reset my laptop to factory setting and I lost all the music I had saved except for what has been stored on my Itouch. I am afraid if I attached my Itouch to my laptop and connect to Itune all my music will be erased.

I filed my taxes with Turbo Tax and go my refund back in one week. Sadly I do not get to spend it on new cloths, new shoes, or even new supplements. The good news is I have the money for the cruise on Carnival to the Caribbeans..... AWESOMENESS!!!!
But Sunday I will get me a new tattoo!

So today I am officially 29 years old and one day. I feel as if Im 23 and maybe thats why I still make dumb misstakes like listening to my ex and trading him my suv which was paid off for a smaller more economical car. Now I am stuck is a car payment. Or maybe for not listening to my peers like my co workers who were nurses who told me not to do any CNA work because its awful.

I am a 23 year old boy in a 29 year old mans body.

The plus about this is that I look 21 years old and still get carded which fuels my ego lol. Sadly on the day of my birthday I was crying in my restroom. After I got out of work I hit the gym. I texted my friends asking if they are still going to meet me for karaoke that night around eight. I got lots of replies that their plans changed, their going out of town, they are to tired, and that they just can not go. An awful feeling of rejections and embarrassment. I wondered if its because I have not been able to spend time with them for their birthdays, or did they think I was expecting gifts, or did they just not want to be around me?
But the night did not end in mellon collie, I went to dinner with a friend and then a few more friends came and joined.

I do feel like I am in "bloom" and becoming something more both physically and mentally.
I realized the only thing stopping me from reaching the stars is myself. This is all going to change!